Saturday, September 08, 2007
9:34 AM
lies. how many times had i encounter lies? uncountable. white lies.. true lies.
but ytd. was the lie which hurt me the most. but everything doesnt matter a shit anymore.
i really dont understand.. why u gotta go to the extend to lie to me.
STOP giving me excuses that you dont wanna hurt me further.
STOP telling me things that u dont think there's a need to explain anything to me.
and you shld have started to say wad u wanna say earlier.
you've lost interest in me. isnt that gd?
all the lies.. all the arguments will just vanish into thin air. but does all that even mean a thing now? FUCK NO! nvm abt that. i lied too.
i didnt go home last night. u think i felt gd telling u what i said? no.
it hurts. fucking hurts.
for once.. i had thought that im going to make things right this time round.. i thought.. u will be the one. the solution.
but heck it. it turned out to be one of the biggest mistakes i'd made.
but im not blaming anyone. i made this move.. i take the responsibility for everything that had happened till now.
i dont understand all the fucking things that are going on between us. but why..? why u gotta do this to me?
I FUCKING HATE LIARS.
and when i said wad i said ytd. it doesnt mean that i wont be here for u anymore. it's jus that.. let's make it limited.
and i know u can move on easily. just get out of my circle. u will feel better.
some said that.. in a r/s. ur emotions ur everything.. there will be ups and dwns. like a roller coaster ride. but for my ride.. it jus kept going down.. going into emptiness.. into the lost. into somewhere that felt like hell. fuck this ride.
fuck everything that had happened.
fuck my life.
im gone
