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Welcome hols..and this boring month of June..
Study is all i am going to do..hope tt's wad i do..
Lol..aint' going anywhere..jus went to mac to study for like only 4 hrs.. ALone.. HAha.. Nowhere..so came back home and did some research on PW.. Don even know if the infos are relevant to the topic anot..

Kel had better win the the tiger thing and give us a big treat... HAha! He was on tv sia..didn saw..but he told me.. Argh..i didn't even appear on tv b4..But better don...haa..

By this time..she will be online..HAha..so bored la..still haf to carry on wif my research..
-Runs off-


oOooOo! Pay tribute to Liverpool!! Emo match man...lucky i didn't missed it.. although the nxt day got gp paper..but hack la!! Soccer more impt..other than *********************
soccer is the most impt..haha!!

today was quite a long day.. had gp paper in da afternoon..was so tired la..was constantly falling aslp man..P1 was quite easy la..wrote abt casinos and stuff..but P2 was difficult...didn't know wad to write esp. for the short qn..arghh..hope i won fail too badly..

today was quite pissed also lor.. got this prankster msged me from nowhere..asking if she can get to know me anot.. I asked who is she..she dun wanna say.. then i called her..using JJ's hp.. SHe said she saw my pic and no. on SG BOYS!!!! Wad the hell la!! I told her not to lie.. and she said she can't find any reasons tt she will wanna lie to me..she sound serious eh actually.. But who the hELL PUT MY PIC AT SGBOYS??? freak..tt's a gay site!! SHe said she love my pics at sgboys and said i was hot..gorgeous.. freakin hell..those words tt i normally hear using to describe NASRI all came to me! Like so strange la!
Then she said her name.. Jennifer..wad the hell..who is she lor.. and she said she wanted to meet me.. argh!
No way la.. After tt i ask liyun to act as my gf to call her and say her.. haha..and guess wad she said when she heard tt liyun was my gf? She said:"HUH? He got a gf?? I tot he likes someone from his sch?" Arghhh!!! HOw she know?? So I suspect is some prankster from sch la.. So boliao man..nth better to do ar... She say wana know me better and stuffs... Eee..if she sincere or wad..she will gif me her name long ago right? .... .... ...
Anyway, now she also neva msg me le..so.. haha!! forget it!! Hmm ..haf to wake up so early tml to meet them at toapayoh interchange...guess tt's all for today..

Adious pple!!


U mADe my daY...=)


We lost..
The yr 2s and 3s..can u believe tt? Haha.. but dunno whether they were serious anot la.. I only knew tt i played.. n i played badly.. I am suppose to play in centre mid.. But i drifted off and was so lost.. Arg! Don even know wad i was suppose to do..! But i almost earned 2 assists..haha! BUt my knee's still draggin me dwn!! Can't do the usual mvms tt i can normally do.. haha..ask the new coach to sponsor me for op la.. Lolz..think too much..

Sometimes..somethings are not suppose to say..but said..sometimes..somethings are supposed to be said..but left unsaid.. Argh..i'm this type of pple.. I dn even know when to say the correct things at the correct time..I dn even know wad the consequences will be and i jus said it..in a moment of madness.. It had happened to me so many times b4..but i jus can't seem to learn..Many times i have wanna ctrl myself.. but it's jus me! The inner me jus wanna tell pple how i feel..and it results in sumthing bad or gd..i dunno.. Jus hoped nth will go wrong.. Hope... Argh! Tml got Gp paper..wth.. Tonight still wanna watch soccer.. dunno whether will fall aslp anot.. zzzz so tired... Tired of all these shit...


whazzup wif today....?
Nth...freakin boring.. I dn even rmb wad went on in sch today.. Jus rmbed tt i kicked alot of balls today.. HAa! Dn think wrongly.. i mean..soccer balls k? =D TT Kel la! Wanna practise for his dunno wad tiger cup thing! Wahha... think also quite diff to win la! Half a million so easy to take meh? Wish him all the best la..cos cannot go dwn to support him..cos maybe got chalet.. Arghh!! which means haf to spend so much money again!!!! Also dunno whether it will be successful anot.. Personally..i hope it will be la...cos it haf been such a long time since we guys got together and haf fun.. each haf our own committments... So it's time tt we haf a get together..=)

And also.. MY CHINESE NAME FUNNY AR!!?? I know it don suits me la!! but..but.. not my fault wad!!! =( Who ask me to be so cute when i was a baby!!? Haha!! so my mum gave the chinese name to me lor.. I also dun wan wad..who knows i grow up and become like tt?? Wif so many pimples and all tt! Haha!! If can..i also wanna change name ar!! =P

cIAOZ pple!! Haf fun making fun of my chinese name.. nvm! I am proud of it!! Haa!!
Don worry..i am really not angry..not tt petty...=))


Sch's starting again tml.. Oo.. BAck to the stupid classrm again.. Arghh..BUt there's something tt's motivating me to go to sch..HAha..=)
Anyway..went to fen's house jus now..she let us eat those things tt she brought from australia.. Not bad! Quite nice.. HAha.. dunno y my appeitite today is exceptionally good! constantly hungry man.. Arg..I'm hungry again now.. Lolz


Jus woke up..ZzZZzZZ
Didn't manage to blog last night as aunt was slping alrdy..
So jus update abit this mornin as i've to rush out.. to meet agus, yen to go fen's house to eat the food she bought frm australia.. Haha..Dn think she bought anything for us la...right fen?? =D

Ytd was nth also.. Went out to boonkeng mac to study alone while waiting for kel cos they say wanna go out again.. So at mac..saw so parents bringing their children along for lunch.. ANd i was thinking..tt... my parents have never did this b4... Never..since they divorced when i was in P6.. b4 that..we've never had a happy outing b4.. really... some of u may laugh... But i dunno.. my childhood sucks.. tt's all i know.. It has been filled wif tears and canings and shoutings.. Argh.. BUt it's all over.. 6 yrs since i saw my Dad..dunno wad and where is he now.. call me once in awhile.. but ..hai..nvm.. It's not too gd to say it out here..

Aites..haf to go.. update soon again pple.. Bye!




Today had heats after sch at bishan stadium.. Didn win anything.. 4x400... opponents were really too strong.. Was only happy tt we didn got last.. But i alrdy tried my best.. think it was the 1st time tt i ran so hard in 400m b4.. But it was such a long time since I ran.. So stamina gone..speed was gone too.. Haha.. hope to regain all back during soccer training..

Was damn tired la.. almost fainted and vommit.. Sucky feeling.. after the heats.. rushed back home..bathed..came out to meet up wif Mat.. actually wanted to catch a movie.. BUt both of us were later.. and so there goes the movie.. HAha.. so jus went to haf our dinner at far east.. after walked ard town.. nth to do.. So went to play pool at cini lor.. quite fun la.. Didn catch up for sum time le.. So had a nice chat wif her.. Asked her to teach me geog and econs during the hols.. otherwise.. i am going to fail my midyr exams like crazy...=(




Things...are never going to be the same......
ZzZzZz..going sentosa tml..gdnight pple.. Wish tt i could hear ur voice..




YaY!! Finally able to use house com.. Lolz.. Jus finish my draft for tt stupid IR.. forgot to hand up in school.. So decided to do it at home la.. Then print it in sch tml..

Oh ya..the msgs by "jacky" on the tagboard..it wasn't by me ya.. by some other pple.. So dn misunderstood ya.. I offended some big shot in sch la..tt's why.. Wahaha!

Celebrated Mr Ram's bdae jus now..although it was a belated one.. BUt we bought a cake for him anyway..and we sang the bdae song and brought the cake inside to the PE staff room to him..But think tt he knew wad we were up to.. so he wasn't tt surprised or anything..jus thanked us and shared the cake wif us.. =)
Of course..we chatted also.. saying how things will be after we change to a new coach.. Seriously..I think the real prob is wif the players themselves la.. I mean.. i am also included la.. Hope discipline will be better..

Tuesday will haf a testimonial match for Ram.. it'll be the yr 1s against the yr 2s and 3s.. Yes man!! I will get to play..it's has been a long time since i can play.. Hope my knee can survive la... tml also got heats at bishan.. taking part in discus (can u imagine me..a stick figure throwing discus??? Haha) and 4x400m.. It has been such a long time since i ran.. Dunno how will i fare.. Hope won bring my team dwn lor.. Anyway..wished u are there....


Finally get to update my blog..at sch com lab.. Wad the hell..dunno wad's wrong wif my house's internet connnection.. everytime got prob.. Irritating man..

Had heats ytd.. But didn took part..cos my event was not on.. Will be on fri... After heats..went to st.wilfred wif kel and txk.. Kel got match..nth to do..so went to see lor.. His team won 2-0.. The 2nd goal..great goal man..!! haha!! HOw I wish i was able to play for them.. Arghh!! Why mus I be injured!!?? F***

Today was so freaky la.. Hannah they all..kept shouting my chinese name.. Irritating man.. tt limin la..went to tell them my chinese name.. They jus wanna haf revenge la.. Wad the hell... Arghh!!

Going to celebrate Ram's bdae later.. chris they all bought one cake for him.. HAha..dunno wad his reaction will be.. Haha..

ANyway..changed my sitting position in class.. Think i may be able to pay more attention by sitting alone there.. =) Hope it helps.. oOOOo..

NOw haf to go do the stupid IR alrdy..ciaos pple..


Great man... trapped in the rain at meridian shopping centre wif kel..and haf nth to do..so no choice..then come and use comp at a stupid lan shop...-__-''

Nth happened tis few days.. only for today.. Haha.. Went to NTU this morning..to attend Institute Day.. So boring la.. But in the morning saw Limin.. haha!! Kept on lauging at Jiang JIn.. ANd they gave him a nice femanine nick nam.. Chanel.. u knw the brand "Chanel" the logo got 2 Cs? haha..CC---->Sissy Tt's why.. =) Hannah even went to confront him.. so funny la!! Asked him why he keep luffing at her and why keep saying why she like me.. Then Jiangjin said : "NO LA! I also not toking abt u!" (in a SISSY way) haha..tt's why they called him sissy..

After I-Day..went home to change and went out wif Kel, TxK and ruiJIe.. Haha..so long neva see Ruijie.. but like nth's changed la.. ONly tt he got a gf le.. *clapz* gd for him.. After tt..went to cini to "do something" which was quite awkward and funny and strange... Not convenient to say here also.. Then went to play pool wif Kel.. AND.. here i am ..trapped.. Arghh..lazy to type anymore... Gd nite pple.. Enjoy the coolness of the rain out there... it's as cold as my loneliness...




Played badminton for almost 3 hrs after sch today.. Now hand quite pain la.. Haha..EVerytime tried to smack the shutter dwnwards..but like always no accuracy!! Thang..teach me how ..y u so pro!! Haha..after tt..had to go for a meeting wif the principal..All the soccer boys haf to attend.. Mrs Ong asked us alot of of ques..like wad is happening to the team and stuffs.. Personally la.. I think tt other than Mr Ram who nids to instill discipline into us... actually we have an impt part to play also...I mean..if we ourselves don haf discipline..no matter how much ram try to tok sense into us.. It will not do any help lor.. We ourselves must be committed la.. dn because of few things..then don wanna attend training and blame other pple...I am not saying tt tis is happening to the team. Jus hope tt these things won happen at all.. Seriously.. we have a great team.. Shaqir.. Zat.. Fauzi.. Chris..Aliff.. Jamas.. Farhan.. All these are great players!! And there alot more too!! But i think wad we nid to brush up at is team work and motivating ourselves.. ya..Hope everything will go fine..I am now still injured..n i also like to help the team more in anyway i could.. I know i am not a gd player or wad.. But i promise u guys..i will try my best la..

argh! tml going to help out at ushering at the volleyball finals. Gd thing is tt we can leave sch at 11.15.. Bad thing is.. haf to face "her"..hope tt i wn meet her la.. it will be quite awkward i think...

My geog.. arrrrrrr!!!!! Now then i know how much i dunn understand abt physical geog!! I am going to fail my mid yr!!!

HElp!!!!!~~~!!!!!!!!!!


*phew* survive today without any thing happening.. Nth interesting thou.. Haha.. Wow..can u imagine? For PE..we went to Delta to watch hockey match.. MI vs NJ..we lost la.. Haha..Endy they all shouting like dunno wad.till Tasha msg us saying tt th NJ pple are scolding us stupid and stuffs.. Haha..problems between schs is always existing.. Nth we can don abt it..=)

Today was quite slack actually.. Finally managed to finish up my PI..but think tt I'll fail it lor..Writing suck!! Didn't know wad to add in also.. zZzzz

So tired la.. watch a soccer match where LIVERPOOL LOST AGAIN TO ARSENAL!!! >.<
Hope they will win Champions League..

Is relationship actually a blessing or a curse.. Wad do u pple expect in a relationship??


Hey mum..I know u may not be able to read this post..But jus wanna wish u a very happy mother's day.. U are at m'sia now..working ur heart out..for who? For this useless brat named Jacky.. I am really thankful for all the things tt u've done for me.. Tho i dn show it and tho we quarrel almost everytime we start to talk.. But i really appreciated all those things u have done for me and the shit u went thru jus for me.. i know myself tt i've not been a filial son..always making u worry and angry.. Jus alone my living expenditures is taking ur toll.. I'm real sorry... Don worry abt dad... I will call him once in a while to ask him to send some money over to u.. Mum.. don always say tt u are better off dead.. Cos if u die.. then i won haf a chance to repay wad u haf done for me... I will hate u for tt.. Be strong mum.. We can weather thru the storm...

I love you...



AGain...friday has come.. Yea..nth happened in particular today.. Went to support the netball girls at Kallang wif Kel and Yuxuan.. Whaha!! Saw my IDOL! BUt she didn play..lolz AFter tt, went over to SAJC to watch th rugby match..which we lost... Tot we could win them.. But nvm..work harder for nxt match..=)


[Verse 1]
The saddest thing I ever learned is relationships don't last
Or maybe I just feel that way cause of my past
Bad memories get to me when I drink mad Hennessey
feeling cold and alone even when I got mad friends with me
I'll still see something that reminds me of her
I got so used to her that without her my mind is a blur
She found somebody quick. I won't find another for a while
She was about to be my wife and mother of my child
It's crazy how you can have your life arranged
and the day you get engaged you notice she's acting strange
like everything's changed and suddenly you don't trust her just the same
then you find out some other man's been fuckin out her brains
That's when your heart starts to feel the pain
so much that you can feel it in your veins and you can't forget her name
That's when you Literally go insane
and you feel like you're so sad you make it rain and then a song plays that says

[Chorus]
Wise Men say, "It looks like rain today"
Crackled on the speakers
Trickle down the sleepy subway train

[Verse 2 ]
I'll never understand how a girl can say she loves a man
and turn around and have sex with another man
I would have much rather been robbed for a hundred grand
than to get interrupted and get a call that she's touching hands
with another man. Oh God! Another man!
I can't even cry. My tears been dry.
That's why it's thundering hard out tonight and it's dark and it's cold
Cause the angels can hear me cry, and it's all in my soul
and all of them know I've never felt this pain in my past
And it's ironic the first place we made love's the same as the last
In the shower ... that's why I put the rain with her name
And my power to trust someone again has faded away
Other girls want me? Tell em it looks like rain today
I wallow in my sorrow, smoke, and watch tapes that we made
And one of them tapes is the day I got played like games in arcades
The day I almost gave up everything that I gained
and the day you get engaged you notice she's acting strange
like everything's changed and suddenly it's on tape and you crumble
cause you notice on the tape she doesn't kiss you, she just fucks you
That's when your heart starts to feel the pain
so much that you can feel it in your veins and you can't forget her name
That's when you Literally go insane
and you feel like you're so sad you make it rain and then a song plays that says

[Chorus]

Song: Rain
By:Cunninlynguists

Haha..nice lyrics doesn't it? The song is quite nice too.. Credit to Nas..he let me listened to the song..saying tt it suits me alot..wad the hell..Haha..
Tml..another boring day..hope i can find something to do ba...
Oh yea.. heard tt "she" is toking to another guy..Haha..great.. hope she is happy now.. and all I can do is wish her all e best..MAybe.. she made a right choice by not liking me..
HAa..isn't tt wad I say in my failed relationships?


You're gone, but don worry, I'll be strong..
Since I can see u walk away, why can't I stay this way?
Wif everything's changed, wif life which is neva gonna be the same..
Time will heal all scars and allow someone new to walk into my life..
But when this time comes, it will be the time when there's no sun..
It will be the time when my tears haf nowhere to run, except down my cheeks, thru my skin and into my heart..

Lolz!! Some stupid stuffs I wrote at my geog notes during lecture today.. Was so bored tt I was fallin aslp! Was thinkin about some things tt had been running thru my mind these few days..Anyway..i know some of the words dn make sense la..jus anyhow write de..

Rain so heavily today..went to Clementi PArtyworld wif Collin after sch.. My best singing partner.. Actually tried out alot of songs..so tt when there's singing comp..can take part.. HAha..it has been such a long time since I took part in one..
Anyway, pple, I guess I'll be performing at teachers' day.. Planning to la..Wif Idle.. =) Hope supporters will come in!!
And the stupid PI...haf to re-do again.. mus haf new idea.. Arghh!! Stress la..hope it will be over soon..
AItes..tt's all for today.. gd nite to the world.. and to "her"


Tasha's leaving next week.. Hmm..y??! But stil haf to respect her decision and wish her all the best.. Everyone will miss u!

Stupid o' me went to msg "her" again tis morning.. Great response I got..haha.
Jacky: Hey morning..err..going for today's heat?
"HEr": Don think so
:End of conversation:

Ya..I got it k? Don worry.. I know wad to do alrdy..I got ur answer very clearly. Am i really so irritating?????! Let's drop the topic abt "her"

Today went for the stupid heats at toapayoh stadium..On way there alrdy raining..so I've a bad feeling that it'll be postpone.. Yea..I was right.. Such a waste of time.. After tt, met up wif Nani and company..went to eat Mc wif Jiali and JJ.. kaoz! Eat somemore fastfood la!! Later my skin cannot heal le..It can't be healed anyway..Oh ya Kel, sorry for pang sehing u..haha..u know e reason la huh?
Hmm..oh yar..had a long chat on mSN wif mat ytd night.. Haiz.she really tok the sense out of me.. Such a great fren she is..(hey! I am not saying tt my other frens are not as great k?? =D)
BUt she really made me realise alot of things tt i haf not realised b4.. Like..she said.. I am Hopeless Romantic
HAha..defination? ONly i know..hee.. But yea! I've learnt to give things up when I'm suppose to and not forcing things to happen..It can only harm me... Haiya..now try to concentrate on my work 1st..hope everything is fine!! (n.n)V



YEa...once again..it's going to be end of a tiring and lifeless day...o.O Wow..believe it anot? this is the 2nd day tt I didn't msg "her".. And of course..unsurprisingly..she did not msg me also.JAck..wad can u expect..is u like pple lehz..not "she" like u ar..so cannot expect too much k? Heard tt she went for Glynis's bdae celebration..hope she enjoyed herself and she's copping in sch..

Nth happened much today..played badminton in sch wif Nas and JJ they even tho i dn haf extra tshirt..then so smelly lor.. BUay TaHan!! Tt Kel also la.. Then today damn emo la.. I've realised tt everytime I sing..I will think of her..Wad's going on in my mind? Am i really serious abt her??

Who knows I can hold on for how long...
Tell me pls.. I really wanna know..
Think I should get my priorities straight once and for all lor.. Studies.. not relationships.. When it's time for them to come..they will... hopefully..they will....


Writing this entry in sch during econs..Cos it's deep down boring.. Talking abt PW yet again.. So long didn't update le..So jus came in and update. Went for the MI bazaar at Tanglin Mall on sat..SO crowded.. BUt it was quite fun..cos me, Kel, HAnjin and TK helped the INteractive club pple to sell their things.. Duno help for wad..maybe we haf nth betta to do...tt's why.. BUt tt's better than walkin ard town like lost souls.. Haha..

Things have not changed for the better b/w me and "her". GAve a small gift which i bought at the bazaar.. VEry simple gift.. U know those type of gifts where they will put ur name inside a tube wif gel? Ya..those type.. Couldn't find her fave colour..which was green.. Too bad.. JUs gave it to like tt and walked away..Nth much I can tok to her abt also.. BUt she msged me to say thanks.. Jus went I tot everything will be going back to normal.. The next day.....

The next day, which was a SUn, was also e same.. Reply as cold as b4.. and there's nth i can tok to her abt.. When I dn msg her..she wn msg me.. When i tried to talk to her..she'll TRY to reply me.. Wad am i thinkin Jacky.. MAybe wad Mat said was right..I can't always be the one looking for love..Think abt it JAcky..think abt it...


Oh ya..continued frm wad Mat said..Thou some pple say I haf to make things happen..but it's actually mentally straining me..This way..it's actually not gd for bth parties.. I am like tt..When i like someone.. I will do all i can to make tt someone happy and feel loved.. But..I've came to realize tt..things are not always like tis..and things will not always be coming my way..Sometimes..My feelings may be wrong too.. Gtg..bell ring le!!