Friday, August 31, 2007
7:39 PM
let's start from ytd. hmm. well .. i met up with bell.
met her at vivo to catch Ratatouille. it was quite nice. hilarious too. kinda brought my mood up abit. im sorry for looking so moody and all. u shld know that im still re-adjusting myself to face you. cos i dunno wad to say to you. im stuck.
this morning. met up with her again at bukit batok to go back to MI to visit the teachers for teachers' day. saw tasha and some old faces
it was nice to see them again. hope you guys are doing fine ya?
then .. kbox with her at clementi.
i tried talking things out with her.. face to face. telling her how i felt about everything. im still so lost without you. i really am.
i know you'd never wanted things to turn out this way too. im really changing.
trust me on that pls.
i miss you.
Thursday, August 30, 2007
5:40 PM
back to friends we shall be.
although the status had been deleted. the memories will stay.
as long as the 'last chance' ain't used up.. im not going to give up.
for my heart still beats
for you.
10:13 AM
im lost.. so lost right now.
everything was just so unexpected. i did my utmost best. but still i cldnt save anything. it was the 1st time.. i felt this way. i felt that i had to fight for smth.. so badly. that i can almost do anything. but it's too late.
i've alrdy knew.. wad kind of r/s u wan to be in.
i've alrdy knew.. how to have a more open mind
i've alrdy knew.. how not to be possesive.
i've alrdy knew.. wad kind of a bf do u wan in me.. no. maybe not in me anymore.
but one thing i dont know.. is that.
why does our r/s have to be determined by chance
u said u dun love me enuff. damn.. it's jus like so back then.
but i didnt blame u for it.. no. i will never blame u for it.
it's the 1st time i cried so hard.. even up till this morning when i woke up and saw ur offline msgs. i jus cant control how i feel anymore.
i miss you. i really do. all the things i'd planned.. everything.
they are gone.
it's weird how during the 1mth plus had let me fallen so deep for u. now that everything had happened.. it's no one's fault.
no one..
at this moment.. u knw im still hanging on. u know that i will still be here for you.
and i hope u know.. that i've really changed.
and i hope u know.. that i love you.
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
6:40 PM
你问我 明天过后会如何
世界若毁灭我们又怎么了
我笑了 电影情节太唬人
只有单纯的你相信着
你问我 明天过后会如何
冰天雪地里我们怎么活着
我笑了 笑你太傻又太笨
但自己心中却决定了
我相信抱着你的手就温暖了
睡着或醒着
我的手为你加温
就算明天崩塌又如何
我们手握着
外面天再冷全都由我负责
也许我有时太傻太呆又太闷
甜言蜜语不是我的风格
但请相信真心从来不会少一分
多嘴的人恋爱从不会认真
我相信抱着你的手就温暖了
睡着或醒着我的手为你加温
就算明天崩塌又如何
我们手握着
外面天再冷
全都由我负责
i broke down. yes.. i broke down for the 1st time when i sang this song last night.
the feelings surging into me was uncontrollable. i miss her. yet i was the one who wanted a short break between us. cos i could sense the problems piling up and it seems that that was the most suitable solution.
yes.. she was right. i was the one who needed more rest from the r/s. it all started with me.
with my insecurities and sensitive feelings. with all this clashing with her heck care attitude.
it's not going to work out at all.
But after wad collin said ytd.. i came to realised.. that the problem wasnt there at all. why fret over non-existing probs.
yea.. it's me.
i really believe that 2 very different pple can be together. why can't we?
i really hope we can work things.. and of course with ur help baby.
my insecurties had let you dwn.. ur inability to help improve this r/s has let me down..
so why cant we talk things out properly?
u know i really wanna go back to the 1st time when we 1st talked and went out. both of us were spending happy times with each other.. cos why? we dun know each other's pasts.
ignorance is bliss. i think this is darn true.
baby. i will wait for u to give me the chance to start afresh.
and also our r/s to start afresh.
im waiting.
Sunday, August 26, 2007
10:02 PM
i hope things stay this way. after the short talk just now.
i came to know that for this r/s to survive.. i haf to keep an open mind.
i dont wan u to feel under pressure. i think i tried too hard. tt's why everything backfired.
im sorry baby. i told u the reasons why i felt insecure.
i hope u know. and thanks for trying.
9:14 AM
baby' slping beside me right now. no idea why i woke up so early also.. maybe it was too warm.
last night had a really weird dream. but seriously it doesnt really matter now.
was suddenly so afraid last night. afraid of wad again?! omg.. well.
it seems like i haf alrdy gt so used to her by my side.. that i was so afraid that one day she will leave. i know it will be up to me to determine the fate of our relationship. i dunno.. but it seems otherwise..
But the days we spent together till now.. they are really great. since when is it not great to spend days with the person u love huh?
thanks for making me grow.
to realise things which i didnt in the past.
i love you baby
Friday, August 24, 2007
6:52 PM
im back.
but it doesnt really make a difference though. haha. i feel that all my posts are so darn boring la.
jus had our 1st mth. nth much really. ktv yet again. lol
bought a pair of rings for the both of us. sorry baby. just wear it for the time being alright? till i saved up more.. a better one will be coming.
these few days.. has really got me into thinking mode. thinkin about?
well..sometime i feel that im really going crazy. not over anyone.. but over me myself. sometimes my feelings are jus so uncontrollable that i hurt the ones around me.
i gt a short temper. i admit that.. but im really trying to change it.
but smtimes baby.. i really hope that u do understand me as well. it takes 2 hands to clap ya?
im just so so angry with myself. for wad i have done. it sucks. seriously.. im not feeling good abt it. i know u are not too. there's patience playing a role over here and i duno wanna test it. NEVER.
Thursday, August 16, 2007
7:06 PM
RULES OF THE GAME :Each player of the game starts off with 10 weird things/ habits/ known facts, about himself/herself.
People who are tagged, must re-post this in their own blog on either ten weird things/ habits/ little facts about themselves, as well as stating this rule clearly.
At the end of the game, the player must choose another 6 people to be tagged, and list them down.
Remember, there is No Tagging Back!
hahahahhahaha! wad a dumb game!
all because of JAYMEE CHUA MEILIAN! hahaha.
(did i get your full name correct?)
ok. here goes.
1. My chinese name. Song Jun Nan. Is that weird enough? haha. It means... HANDSOME IN CHINESE! try to beat that someone! (:
2.I not only sing to myself.. i can talk to myself at times too. Actually i think almost everyone will do it when they are alone. cos there's no one to talk to! i will ask ques.. and ans them myself. haha!
3.err... ok. Baby said im always moodless. meaning.. my facial expression is always blank. except for the countless pimple scars on my face.. they can't see anything le. haha!! so most of the time.. they wont know whether im actually sad or happy. haha
4.My fondness of cold jokes! i have this weird habit of telling my friends cold jokes. it's not funny at all! but yet i will laugh very loudly and run away. because im afraid they would beat me up or slap me!! wahahhah.
5.im not sure whether is this consider a weird thing abt me.. but im sensitive. yes. IM SENSITIVE! saw that baby? hahaha im sure im not the only guy who is sensitive. I get jealous quite easily. weird? i dont really know man.
6.OK! i slp without underwear! weird? haha. more comfortable wad! jus like most girls out there slp without their bras. it's more healthy ok?!
7.I love singing. BUT i turned down quite a number of offers to join singing schs or artiste management companies. No trust abt the companies or no confidence in myself? I dunno man.
8.I can lose my temper quite easily because of large crowds. Ask kel. always during zouking or whichever club. whichever bugger knock into me or jus stop there and dont move.. i will be freaking pissed and my mood will be spoilt. OH YEA.. baby must be contemplating abt going clubbing with me. hahaha
9.i dunno whether i have split personalites. but im different from what im outside when im at home. at home.. everyone who talks to me thru the phone will say i sound like a gentleman! hahaha! but i can be such a devil outside of my house. welll. it might be due to family backgrd i guess.
10.when i was young.. i can't go to slp.. unless my mum scratch my back for me. haha! i will feel very comfortable and i will slwly fall aslp.
ok! im not very weird overall! hahaha.. cos i dn think these are weird pts! except for some la.. hahhaha.
(:
anw. away from the game..
haha.. time has passed quite fast aint it? 1 mre week and it will be a mth.
i know it's jus a mth. but i think at least it is more or less a deadline that we have to meet in order for us to advance further. many pple had said we are two pple from diffrent worlds. many had said that we won't last long.
but baby.. i wanna prove them wrong. i had said many times.. for this few short weeks.. everything has been revolving around you. although it's just a short period.. but i can imagine us doing that in a long time coming. tt's of course what i wish for.
no matter what disagreements or quarrels we had in the past.. im sorry for it. i just hope it can brings us closer.
love you baby.
WEEKEND! FLY HERE ASAP PLS?! hahaha
Friday, August 10, 2007
6:21 PM
more FFIs today. irritating. time passes damn slow during that period. feeling slpy, tired.
was like so lost in time like that la! so stagnant.
but luckily.. weekends are here! finally.
went ktv with collin and his frens recently and wif baby. haha! they are a fun bunch of pple. thou it took quite awhile for the atmosphere to warm up. thanks to collin's craziness. as usual.
hahaha. after singing.. when Mr. Bean to get some drinks and chilled out. we played hangman la..
lucky baby was in our grp! SHE'S SO DAMN SMART! she gt all the answers correct and saved my grp from trouble. haha.
HOW'S THE WATER GUYS? 3 full cups huh? hahhaha
watched Jay's Secrect ytd. it was OK. haha. not really touching enough. maybe cos wad happened in the movie will never ever happen in reality. it's too fantasy. but still overall.. jay's acting improved alot..there were some part which were quite hilarious la. hahaha
pay jus gt into my bank and im spending agn. my god. pls control me someone! i need to save up! bought a nike polo tee. it's a new colour in my closet la. YELLOW! haha. thanks to baby.. she said i shld wear brighter colours.. and not always black la.. white la.. make me look so dull! haha.. ok la.. i kinda agree.. as long as not pink will do. hahaha
GUESS WAD?! TMR IS KTV TIME AGAIN!
baby's idea. she wans me to sing live.. lol!
so funny la she.
alright. tt's all for today!
byebye!
Monday, August 06, 2007
8:09 PM
these few days haven been spent in vain. it brought us closer.
ktv. shopping. the talks till morning. hahaa
and the JOKE OF THE DAY. how i wished it never ends.
2weeks had passed.. but it seems like 2mths. as thou we had been together for long. and things are abit smoother now.. thou problems still arise.
im sry they did. but hope u know that im trying.
i love you baby
on a side note..
waking up every morning is really taxing la.. literally drag my feet up to go to camp. and furthermore.. nth interesting is happening!! it's soooo freaking boring can!
tmr will haf 150 ord ffi. wow.. can do whole day also wont finish i tell you. damn! im so unmotivated.. i need to sing it off. hahhahha
ktv anyone?
jus gt to know that baby is having fever!!! u gotta take care girl. im so guilty cos i think i spread it to her! oh no.. if u are reading this.. pls
STOP RIGHT NOW AND GO AND REST ALRIGHT?!
