Saturday, October 15, 2005
1:41 PM
Went to sch again for PW..haf to apologize to Huiwen and Huda for my foul mood..Sorry.. was quite in a bad mood for sumthing that happened..Nvm..at least we got to compile our WR a lil'.Haha..people haf been saying tt I change blogskin like i am changing my clothes..it depends on my mood actually..the previous was not suitable for wad i am feeling nowadays..Kind of down..yea~Was watching the 7pm show on chnl 8 jus now..n there was this scene where this guy was overseas..he was sick.. and he received news tt his dad passed away.. And the family was actually in alot of trouble bcos of some serious conflicts..At that point of time, I was thinkin.wad if i suddenly received news frm m'sia..tt my dad passed away..how will i feel? It had been such a long time since i saw him.. think..since pri6?Ya..since the time my parents divorced.. I had not seen him..recently..my grandma passed away.. n i can't go cos the funeral was held in m'sia..He was there.. and i only saw him thru photographs.. for some reasons.. he couldn't come back to s'pore.. Although he said he would..for umpteen times..So i really wondered.. how will i react if i really received news like tt..Pple say i shouldn't hate him..even wad he had done in e past had let me and Mum down..I did..i did hate him..but when he called.. i would still pick up his calls..and ask him how was he..I won say i would miss him..I duno why.. i realised i don even miss him when he was gone..simply..I dn rmb clearly how he disappeared frm my life too..It was all too blurry..and i dn even wanna rmb the past now..all those shit tt had happened.. It still hurts..to think back of it..I guess..i can only hope tt bth my parents are really doin well now..I love y'all
