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Pls be alright mum.. I nid u u know tt? right? I know u haf been sick tired working for me..I know i am a burden to u..Take care of ur health.. Oh mY...fuck.. I can't be there to take of u.. Shit..Where msut all these shit happen now? Why...bloody fucked up life.. Mum..I know u wil be alright right? U will be fine..It's jus a minor faint..nth will be wrong..pls..be strong.. i cannot imagine me w/o u.. Sorry for all e quarrels in da past.. I wil not make u angry again..PLs..be fine..I am praying for u..Shit..AHHHH..



Haha..dn u think this pic is so funny? LOLS..my fren send it to me..Wahaha! =)
Also some jokes below:

A panda walked into a bar. He went up to the bar and said "I'd like a steak and kidney pie and a Coke " so the barman took his order and the panda went to sit down. Soon a waiter brought over his meal. The panda ate it up, thanked and tipped the waiter and paid the bill.
All this seemed pretty normal until the panda pulled out a gun from the depths of his fur, pulled the trigger and BANG! shot the waiter.
The barman came over and said "Wha.. wh.. You just shot my friend!!!" the panda calmly replied "Do you know what I am?"
"Why yes," the barman answered. "Your a panda."
"Good," the panda nodded "Now go home and look up 'panda' in the dictionary."
And with that, the panda walked out of the bar.
The barman was a little unsure, however he was very eager to be enlighted on the subject of his friend's murder, so he went home to find his dictionary.
After a while, he found 'panda' and quickly read the definition:
PANDA:
1. A black and white bear native to China. Eats shoots and leaves.


old man was sitting on a bench at the mall. A young punk walked up to the bench and sat down.
He had spiked hair in all different colors: green, red, orange, blue and yellow. The old man just stared. Everytime the punk looked, the old man was staring at him.
The punk finally said sarcastically :"Wad's the matter old timer? Never done anything wild in your life?" Without battling an eye, the old man replied: "got drunk once and had sex wif a peacock. I was jus wondering if u were my son."


I jus so miss the "playmate" period..when we could tok abt everything under the sky..without even having to feel the uneasiness b/w us.. Things right now haf changed so much..ever since we knew our feelings for each other..misunderstandings and stuffs are like so common b/w us..think ytd night was the toll.. U said u were hurt.. i know..
But wad did i asked for? I asked for nth except for some assurance frm you..Is it so difficult?
Dn u realise tt there's some kind of obstacles b/w us and neither one of us wanna overcome it? I never did doubt u..never ever did i use any means or methods to jus wan to be wif u..all these time rd.. i haf been respecting ur decision and standing by u.. All i need was a yes or no frm u..was tt so difficult to say it?

I am sad...for wad? For the person who i love..but wasnt there for me.. for the person whom i am so afraid to lose to anyone..anyone.who loves her more than i do..I've never expect things to turn out this way.. u understand? Am i wrong to be asking for someone to be there? Even if we are not msging or toking..u dn seem to care.. or if u did.. i didn see it..im sry..

I am constantly there for u when u nid someone.. But..it doesn't seems to work..U doesn't seems to know..Why are u not toking to me like how u tok to ur guys frens????? FUCK IT
I've know my mistakes!!! I jus nid one last chance!!! from u.. pls..i beg u..i never wanna lose u my girl.. ahh..tell me wad u wan me to do.. pls.. pls..


Jus got home frm studying at JP..
Was it really studying? I dunno..cos felt sick halfway thru..can feel the heat flowing thru my body.. So decided to leave early.. Sorry pple for toking..I am not moody..maybe ya..abit.. But much of it is due to me feeling quite uncomfortable. Ya..

"can u feel the hurt..it's everywhere ard me...so strong tt my heart can't hold it anymore.. I jus need ya to understand me and know how i am feeling..tt's all i ask for.. I miss ya.."


Great! everything went back to normal.. Happy for ya'll..;)
Hope tt everything will be fine for u in e future ya.. Jus glad tt u did understand them..
Anyway..meeting pei later for study..dunno who else going ..yea~ will be numbed by my notes later..No talking..yup..

How i wish..you'l make funny faces at me in sch..
how i wish..u'll be tt happy if ur class were to move nxt to mine..
how i wish..we can walk past each other without turning the noisyness ard us into silence..
But now things are better for u.. i guess u are satisfied..and maybe w/o me in ur life..it'll be better..i dunno..i jus guess... which i hope is never true..
I dunno why..i jus feel affected by everything tt u do and everything tt happens ard u.. why..?
I feel for u and u know it..u feel for me..and i know it too..
But why is it as if we are being so stagnant and nth's moving towards our way..
I never did expect anything from u in return..really..
But will u at least gif me a sign..? To let me know..tt we're working out and we're walking towards the direction tt we want?
I'll be waiting.. PLs..let me know.. gif me a sign to let me know tt u feel for me too...?

~Back to normal..but ain't for me..



Hope everything is alright and tt u know wad they are trying to say to u.. ya..I wish to be there for ya. But i know at this point of time..nth's going to help..esp.help frm me..
Jus hope..we'll be the same as b4..Never demean urself anymore... To me..u're perfect..really..

Hey.. you are the last person tt i tot would have doubt me.. But i guess i'm wrong.. If you tot i asked you how's things between u guys because i haf some intentions of my own good.. You're wrong k? But nvm.. i know why you doubted me too..I've got no right to blame you.. Ya..jus dn let this affect our frenship..yea?

Boring friday..
went home after some rounds of badminton..sry guys for showing temper..Cos e thing tt i mentioned abv. happened.. Yea..sorry boss nasri
Reached home.. did my EoM and was online till now.. Was constantly worrying abt them.. Till wa wa told me tt everything seems fine..
Yea~ Gt assurance frm pei tt everything went well..
Great.. cheers to the frenship of u pple.. (:

"I know u're feeling very confused and everything's a messed up inside u right now.. BUt i hope tt wad they said had really gotten into u..yup.. hope u recieved my msg jus now.. I'll be there for u.no matter wad..rmb? I'm ur ghost..=)"


5 don'ts when you're sleeping

• Don sleep wif a watch

Watches can emit a certain level of radioactivity. Though small, but if you wear your watch to bed for a long time, it might have adverse effects on your health.

• Don't sleep wif phone

Putting the phone beside your bed or anywhere near you is not encouraged. Though some of us will use phones as alarm clocks, but please put the phone as far as possible. Scientists have proved that electrical items including mobile phone and television sets emit magnetic waves when used. These waves can cause disruptions to our nervous system. Therefore if you need to put your mobile phone near you, switch it off first.

• Don't sleep wif make up

People who sleep with make up might have skin problems in the long run. Sleeping with make up will cause the skin to have difficulty in breathing and problem in perspiring. You will also need a much longer time to go into deep sleep.

• Don't sleep wif bra

Scientists in America have discovered those that wear bras for more than 12 hours have a higher risk of getting breast cancer. So go to bed without it. While.. lucky i don't..wahaha!

• Don't sleep wif someone's husband or wife

You may never wake up again

Oh ya.. dn say i am pple's eye candy..
I am no fucking eye candy to other pple u get it?

The devil is pulling me away...away to the life of hell..
Never before haf i felt like this..
Someone pull me back in pls..


Why.. why is it tt i get these type of cold response frm y'all.. Wad is it tt i've done wrong.. All am i only thinkin too much..?
Ever since it happened.. Nth's seems the same anymore.. y? can someone pls gif me a satisfying ans..I really nid to know..

Stayed for night study today..wif nasri, riyah, geetha n shiqin.. It was unproductive though.. cos i kept eating.. Was too hungry to concentrate..Jus only reached home.. tired..cos of the gym work.. Maybe not only bcos of gym..
Because of everything tt's happening now..
I hate it..really hate it alot..


I think this song really relates to how Im feelin now..

Simple Plan
Untitled

I open my eyes, try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how, I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No, I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got nowhere to run
The night goes on, as i am fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
Try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't


It's all fake..I know it.. It's not me.. Not the jacky tt u all are seeing..I dunno wad's happening to me.. the "good mood" thing is all a fake i guess.. Inside of me.. everything's twirling.. I dunno.. I am really so confused at wad's going on at this moment..

I am sry lynn.. I knew i shld haf return the book to u myself..and not ask ur classmate to pass it to u.. BUt i really didn know tt he did not go back to class straightaway and put it in ur class.. Ya..my fault aite? For showing all the attitude.. Everything's my fault..I'm sry

I expect you to tok to me..to ask me exactly wad happen.. But u didn.. N even said. I damn attitude..without hearing my explanation.. U know how much it hurt me.. Dammit..I don wad happen to me and lynn to affect things b/w us can?

Why these fuck shit is happenning to me at this pt of time? How to carry wif such a life like this.. Was walking home last night.. I really felt like jus running towards those incoming cars and let them run over me.. Who cares? No one! Wad a fuck life i haf.. No one.. coming home is alrdy like going to hell.. And now..all this..do u know i really nided u so much to stand by me?

FUCK! It's ME..I even blame my parents for bringing me to this world..Shit.. I dn even know wad i wan in life now.. Seriously dunno..

U asked me..if i am really determined to get the things i wan i life..YA..i thinked too much.. I tot.. U was abt to ask me to give it all up again.. I really dn wish tt anything will affect us.. I dn wish.. U heard tt? BUt why are we toking like this.. why.. Hope things will turn out fine soon..

Went for trainin today.. But didn took part in it.. Jus stood by the side and did my own stuffs like shooting.. Ya.. coach ask me to go to the doc asap.. Stupid me.. Simple stuffs like going to the doc. I also can't get it done.. Dumb.. Then.. we had photo taking.. Quite fun.. wif the crappy boys ard.. And also we saboed Justin as today was his bdae.. HAPYY BDAE JUSTIN!
Went home alone after tt.. Saw Kel and his ger.. Suddenly i felt so lonely.. Haha.. Where are you...?

And whoever anyhow write my name on the tables in lt4.. dn be stupid la k? I think i know who u all are.. But pls la..u all only causing more probs for me.. My classmates are alrdy making it into a joke and i dn feel good.. Dammit..

"You make feel as if i'll lose you..Feel so scared..felt so lost.. dn leave aites? The promise b/w us.. It's still there.."



Wahaha..tian ar..
" u are my ghost now..Ghosts never leave one's side de right? So i would rather u haunt me and be by my side for as long as possible k?" Haha.. I proud to haf u as my ghost too..! Hoho"


nearly gt beaten up by crazy family today cos of the lame cold jokes i asked them.. But it's funny wad! Haha.. i think le stil wil luff man..! LOL..

today is quite boring man.. Learnt the stupid Aces Day dance which we are suppose to do it during Teachers'Day..which is also at e same time..Aces Day.. Last yr dance was at least nicer.. But i rmbed tt i didn went for the celebration.. Arggh! So many freakin homeworks to complete.. But i can't seem to sit dwn and even open my bag to do them.. Help me someone.. pls!! =(

Hey..really eh.. I realised tt when u see the person u actually hated slping.. Suddenly..the hatred for tt person jus like..disappeared! I mean..maybe it applies to me only la.. Cos..it's like.. I think tt their faces look so peaceful n innocent when they are slping and all of a sudden.. U dn hate them anymore.. I am saying this..cos i actuallly hate him alot alot.. Someone who is in my house.. Ya.. BUt then this morning.. When i saw him slpin..like all the hatred gone.. I am sick la huh? go and see someone slp.. haha! LOL

And these few days.. I've had weird dreams!
Dream #1: I dreamt tt i was playing a white piano at this room alone..and was singing a song.. UP till now.. i can't rmb the tune.. And i dunno who i was singing to.. Everything in e dream is like so blurry..When i woke up..it was alrdy morning.. I was stilll lying on my bed when i suddenly hummed the tune out. At tt pt of time.. i can still rmb the tune.. And i tot to myself..: Wasn't tt the tune i dreamt of jus now?" Hmm..weird.. to me..maybe not to the most of u..

Dream#2: OH this dream happened jus 1 days ago.. when inside the dream.. i was on e way to sch..then i rmbed tt i was counting the msgs tt i'd sent out in my hp..cos i'll usually do tt to keep count of how many msgs i sent out.. then it's like in e dream..i rmbed..790msgs.. yEa.. So the nxt morning i woke up.. was studying in my kitchen.. Got bored and so i picked up my hp and wanted to count my msgs.. GUess wad? After counting and i wanted to note it dwn in my calender in my hp.. I opened the calender function and it actually had "790 msgs" as a note there..on the date 21/8/05..i dreamt of it only at that morning b4.. haha.. I was freaked out.. did i really noted the number of msgs there or wad? I dunno..lol


A story tt I would like to share wif u guys..=)

Most Important Body Part
My mother used to ask me what is the most important part of the body.Through the years I would take a guess at what I thought was the correct answer.When I was younger, I thought sound was very important to us as humans, so I said, "My ears, Mommy."

She said, "No. Many people are deaf. But you keep thinking about it and I will ask you again soon."Several years passed before she asked me again. Since making my first attempt, I had contemplated the correct answer. So this time I told her, "Mommy, sight is very important to everybody, so it must be our eyes."She looked at me and told me, "You are learning fast, but the answer is not correct because there are many people who are blind."

Stumped again, I continued my quest for knowledge and over the years, Mother asked me a couple more times and always her answer was, "No. But you are getting smarter every year, my child."

Then last year, my grandpa died. Everybody was hurt. Everybody was crying. Even my father cried. I remember that especially because it was only the second time I saw him cry. My Mom looked at me when it was our turn to say our final good-bye to Grandpa.

She asked me, "Do you know the most important body part yet, my dear?" I was shocked when she asked me this now. I always thought this was a game between her and me.She saw the confusion on my face and told me, "This question is very important. It shows that you have really lived in your life. For every body part you gave me in the past, I have told you were wrong and I have given you an example why. But today is the day you need to learn this important lesson."

She looked down at me as only a mother can. I saw her eyes well up with tears. She said, "My dear, the most important body part is your shoulder."I asked, "Is it because it holds up your head?"

She replied, "No, it is because it can hold the head of a friend or a loved one when they cry. Everybody needs a shoulder to cry on sometime in life, my dear. I only hope that you have enough love and friends that you will always have a shoulder to cry on when you need it."

Then and there I knew the most important body part is not a selfish one. It is sympathetic to the pain of others. People will forget what you said... People will forget what you did... But people will NEVER forget how you made them feel.


Ytd was abt the 4th or 5th i donated blood i guess? Haha.. BUt i felt good la.. At least i did some good deeds in my life? But dunno why this time..when the nurse took out the needle.. It damn hurts man! This batch of nurses very violent.. The way they deal wif the needles and ur hand.. really can scared u man.. BUt everything was fine la.. even went to play badminton wif my Nas-boss after sch..

Saw the teachers' day audition in sch hall.. Dn think this yr's performances going to be nice.. Except for helmi's dance item and maybe mark's band item? I dunno.. Haa..BUt it's like so many times i've said b4 tt i wanted to perform during teachers' day in sch.. BUt never once did i prepare for an item and go for the auds.. Arrghh! Nxt yr.. I PROMISE!!!!! provided i can find someone to perform wif me too..LOL

today's a boring day..really.. Almost slept for every lessons.. But luckily not.. cos i've alrdy promise someone not to fall aslp in class and to pay attention le.. yEa~ But one thing interesting tt happened to day..was during geog, some ger dislocated her knee inside the toilet while changing..This ger then run into my class..(At first i tot she had came screaming for nas's no..=P) and told mrs khoo tt someone had injure herself in e toilet and need help urgently.. Haa.. We started KPoing lor..making wild guesses of wad had happened.. Almost all the big shots in e sch came up..Mrs ONg..and the HOds..haha.. AFter like 20 mins.. the ger was stretched out by the paramedics..HAiyo.. how serious can a knee injury get.. *smothers my knee*

"Really very happy tt u sent me tt msg..even up till nw.. Cos i know..at least..u will bother to msg me.. DN need to thank me.. I am jus doing wad i'm doing.. And dn wry.. I know wad i am doing.. Jus be happy..and i will be happy ya.."


From the heart lyrics.
I know you've heard this words a hundred other times before
And you've been hurting so your heart has chose to close the door
Love broke your heart, and brought u lies
Look in my eyes, you'll see a love that's deep and true
Tender and strong and all for you
U can trust this love
Honest, that's the honest truth

Chorus:
From the heart, i'm giving you everything, everything
From the heart, i promise you that i'll be there
I 'll be there to love you
From the soul, I'm showing you all I feel
All I feel is, from the heart, from the heart

I will protect you and respect you and be all you need
And when you reach for love you only need to reach for me
These arms will never let you down
They're staying around, I'll walk with you through every storm
I'll keep you safe, I'll keep you warm
And you'll have no doubt, you're the one I'm living for

Repeat Chorus

I'll provide the love you need
Just trust my touch, believe in me
I'll never make you cry
Give it all I got, with all I've got inside

Hmm..jus wanna share wif you the song on my blog.. think haf some probs wif it right? Sorry abt tt.. haha! But personally..think it's a very nice song..although it is quite an old song.. BUt who says oldies ain't nice??! haha.. Sometimes when u get a lil' emo.. u can't help but listen to tis type of emo and mushy wisshy songs.. Haha.. It can make u think of things tt u never thought before...

Today was photo taking..Hmm..think i look stupid la.. I never knew how to smile in frt of a camera.. think i'll look weird

Was thinking of cutting my hair.. BUt many of them jus asked me to go bang wall cos they dn find it long at all! haha.. BUt dunno.. find it hard to style it.. Maybe i dunno how to style it la.. Tt's why.. Nvm.. Tahan till next week then go shirley ma and cut.. It's cheap and quite good over there..

Has been thinking for a long time whether to quit soccer.. And my final decision was


QUIT

I dun wan to.. But my knee's giving me lot of probs.. It's like everytime i go to training.. It'll go off.. Hai.. And also..I won haf the money to go for an operation.. So i think i will jus quit.. Anyway.. The team is alrdy strong enuff.. So i think I won make a diff at all.. Jamas quit also becuase of his knee... Yea.. Left wif no chinese frm toh tuck..except for Samuel frm Bartley.. Haha..NOw will be like so free on Weds..like today.. Came home early.. BUt did nth except to get stuck in frt of the comp doing pratically nth at all.. My god.. Wad am i thinkin man..?

OUr Story going to end soon..?
I hope not..
I'm stil here for you..


Today's monday.. Duh.. haha.. Nth much happened tho.. Everything went past normally w/o anything great happening.. was suppose to stay back after sch to do the mgt qns on small biz.. Helmi and Ct also.. BUt we bargained wif chelvie and told him we were very tired after pe.. and if we can do it tml after sch..luckily he agreed.. Haha.. AFter tt.. went to town to meet up wif peiyi they all.. cos they were celebrating Ling's bdae..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
LINGHUI!!~!
Haha.. yup.. asked me to finish off the whole load of leftover cake.. Haha..not bad la..quite nice.. Yea.. BUt after awhile.. think they were abit tired.. so we went home..

Everything's too calm.. I dunno. BUt i feel as if it has come to an end.. An "end" which i never wan to encounter or go thru..
But..i am still hanging on..still here for u...
Miss u..


It's has been a long time since I haf felt this way..
Made know how the true Jacky is like..
Learnt alot..Learnt to fight for wad's mine..
Sry pple..tt u might not know wad i am toking abt.. But me myself knows it.. which is alrdy good enuff..


1st of all.. HAPPY 40TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! Best wishes to you! HAha!! HOw i spent my national day ytd was tt i woke up early in da morning to travel all the way to admiralty to get money frm my uncle.. cos my mum asked me to do so.. Haha.. after tt.. was suppose to meet kel at Jurong Pt.. cos we planned to go to Jurong East to celebrate national day.. he wanted to go support his darling.. Haha! Then i think i very patriotic la.. Went to giordarno to but a red polo t! Haha.. Dunno how many polo t i haf in da house now le..
After tt eating at JP.. (saw lynnest mei there.. think tt she tot i and kel were gays.. Shitta! Cos we were bth wearing the same shirt...) We went to JE..where else!!!? Haha.. ON da way.. think we gt stares frm others also.. Shitt.. cannot wear da same shirrt mehhhhh?? Haha..
The sun was scorching man! So hot.. but i tot.. nvm.. Make use of the chance to sun tan.. I am not any darker now.. Haha.. shitta! Saw the motivators there... so cutte la they dance.. Like primary sch kids.. esp. wif their outfits.. Haha..! Saw kel's gf and her frens..and of course..ah min, pei and Zhuren!! Haha!! When they saw us.. they were so shocked! cos they did not wan us to see them in their kiddy outfits and them dancing.. Haha..but.. we saw it all anyway.. haha! BUt i and kel stood for quite a long duration man..we reached at 3+.. then stood all the way till the celebration ended.. which was like 8+..yea.. we stood for so long.. Haha.. but was worth it la.. the atmosphere was great.. tho hot! Hahha..
AFter tt.. kel went to meet up wif his gf while i met up wif the 3 crazy ones wif collin joining us at pei's house after awhile.. They wanted to bath 1st.. so i waited for them in da livin room.. PEi's dad was there.. Really.. he got a fierce look.. But was quite friendly tho he didn tok to us.. Haha! They even ask me to play Xbox wif him! Wad the hell.. wad id i win him..then he box me.. Haha! Then colling reach le.. Actually ask him to play chess wif the dad..LOL! Haha..but he was watchin dvd la.. so don disturb him..later kanna scold more malu.. Haha! After tt..we went ard searching for sumthing to eat cos all of us were dead hungry.. After tt..took a cab home..
Tired..but was worthwhile... I know wad i meant.. Haha =)


Was suppose to meet ling they all at cck at 9.. BUt i woke up at 8! haha..didn hear my alarm rang.. So i jumped up and went to bath immediately.. BUt was thinkin tt maybe that i can meet them at kallang station..cos we suppose to go to indoor stadium for the anniversery celebration for CHC..(promised ling tt i will go..so cannot don go) Then i dun nid to rush le ma.. then Ling said ok lor..meet b4 10 at kallang.. Then i prepare to go out le..collin call me say they going ang mo kio to take shuttle bus to indoor.. I sian1/2.. Haha.. Sorry collin if i sounded rude and attitude on the phone.. Cos i stun la..as i dunno how to go to indoor stadium frm my house.. At that time..i really felt like tellin them tt i don wanna go le.. But.. I promise pple le.. cannot break it.. So i said ok lor.. then collin teached me how to go.. Who knows.. i reach so much earlier than them.. Then i had to wait for ard 40 mins.. Haha..so hot summore! Should haf brought sun tan lotion..ok..lame..-__-''

Hmm..was quite amazed at the no. of pple who turned up for the event.. was so full tt only the stadium can only allow 2/3 of the church population.. Wahha! Dunno jay chou concert got lidat anot.. Lol! Guss wad.. and i nearly fell aslp there.. I know it's rude la.. tt's why i struggled to keep my eyes open.. Cos i slept quite late the nite b4.. Ard 2+ 3.. Haha..

Anyone..the event was alright.. And after tt.. we went to town.. The guys and pei went to play pool.. while zhuren, ling and min went for this makeover thingy near suntec.. They went cos they got this voucher given by the church.. BUt who knows they didn manage to makeover cos it require someone over the age of 21! Wad a rule..-_-'' And so they joined us back at K pool lor..
Min..cheer up..wadever is happening to u.. Dn think abt it anymore ya.. =)

After tt.. me..pei..ling and collin went to a coffee shop near my house to eat bat kut teh.. Me and ling were quite tired la.. So was abit quiet .. Till they say i eat like pig.. haha! Wad the hell.. I no la.. i no image when i eating de.. haha.. After that..proceed back home.. Quite tired la.. Haiyo..

Things i learnt today: A person wif no vision has no future.. A person wif no future always go back to the past.. ( dunno whether i got it correct anot..) Haha.. See ya pple!


It has been a long day.. Really long.. N i realised tt i haf short term memory..
Cos when i was bathing jus now..after I wash my face.. I think i forgot tt i had washed my face and i washed it a 2nd time.. It was after tt then i realised i had wash my face twice.. Haha..funny isn't it.. Dunno wad am i doing also.. HAa..

Woke up at ard 10+ today..was awaken by the tv..dammit..Then i took a look at the sky and tot tt the sun was perfect.. Haha..so woke up immediately and went to haf a swim.. Didn managed to tan much tho.. My whole body's reddish now.. After tt..went home.. had nasi lemak for lunch ( which was quite delicious ) n went out again..Went to boon keng mac to study..BUt i couldn't really concentrate.. Was thinking abt "it" Wondering whether everything is stable now..wonder if history will repeat itself..Alot of "wonders" ya..Everything's stucking to my mind now like super glue.. (heck that)

Sometimes.. I also think tt..i make choices too easily..and often result making the wrong moves.. BUt now.. I am trying to learn.. trying to grow up..trying to make the choices I make frm now on worthwhile.. And it all starts from..U


Forget abt the story tt i posted previously.. Shitty.. HAha! NOw 7th mth right? Haha.. Let me post a stody that my fren wrote.. Personal experience.. Quite creepy i think..
Alright..
Here it goes:

Cant believe it happened but it did. It all happened..today.

Finished work at around 11.15pm at cineleisure and made my way back via mrt. (Sidenote: At Cityhall mrt station, the door didnt open for the passengers for a whole 3 minutes although it already stopped) I walked back home after taking a bus at pasir ris bus interchange. Didnt realize today (after 12am liao) was the start of the 7th month until i saw people lining at the pavement, already offering incense and food to the hungry souls from hell. The smell was terrible...reached my lobby and...... that was where it all happened

Let me first brief abit of the floor plan of my lobby. There are two elevators, left and right. My flat is relatively new, therefore, there are actually two transparent windows on each side of the two sliding doors that slides open when someone is near. Guess there is a sensor or sth.
Anway, back to the story. I pressed the button for the lift on the right elevator. Checked my time. "12.16am". Waited for awhile before the elevator on the left arrived and, abit disgruntled, as i was tired and the lift just have to play that trick and lemme walk that extra few metres, i walk towards it.

When i got inside. I felt a sudden pang of absolute uneasiness. The feeling of being engulfed in the small square space of the elevator was overwhelming. Bare in mind i am NOT a claustrophobic. The hair and the back of neck was standing on end and i dunno why. Thinking that i might have been abit unsettled by the sights of ppl offering incense, i thought nth of it. What happen next seemed like forever. So slow that i seemed to remember every single second of it.

I pressed "3". It did not light up.


Tried again... still didnt.


Feeling a tad impatient and very annoyed...i pressed no "3" a few times at once.


No. 7 lighted up.



The door begins to close...slowly.


"Strange"...i thought. Just then...

"hee..hee...". The tinest of giggle, somewat like a child, no more den a second, above my head. My heart skipped a beat and I freezed...Door was 1/4 closed.


"hee..hee...". Again...behind me this time...door...1/2 closed. My eyes already in a state of shock. Heart thumping like mad.


"hee...". behind my legs. My jeans seemed to be moved. As if sth brushed past it. door 3/4 closed.


With that motion of movement. I pushed the door open slightly so fast, breaking cold sweat and clamoured out of the elevator in a hurry, squeezing thru the tight gap. The door behind me closed with a subtle "Glom.."...

turn ard, heart still thumping. The lift was already moving up. However, thru that two transparent windows...the lights inside that elevator flickered...and for a moment or two when the light was bright in dere...i thought i saw a silhoette rise up frm the floor, at the beginning of the bottom of the left window. A hint of hair..Then..gone...

I freezed for just a sec and when rush up the staircase to the third floor. And ran towards my front door which is juz beside the lobby. The panel on top of the left elevator door was...



1st floor...


Here am i again.. So stuck for EoM which is due tml.. Don even how to start writing.. And dunno how to write also.. Arghh..Stupid PW..
And today.. Luke Chen tell me to restrain frm training bcos of my injury..Quite disappointed la.. Cos i really wanna take part in training and do a part for the team..I know i am not a key or very gd player.. BUt..still jus wanna play a part in the team.. Yaa.. Think i really nid to do to the doc soon..
God knows why I am so moody these few days.. It's like i get agitated for small lil things.. Hope my mood will turn for the betta ya..


TODAY is ah pei's birthday! HAppy birthday! Sorry didn buy and present for u ar.. HAha! BUt hope u like the saga seeds pattern collin and I made..HAha!
Actually nth much to blog these days..
Oh ya.. PArents meeting was a disaster.. I gt really bad comments frm my teachers and they say tt they will closely monitor my progress frm now on..And also..thanks er jie for helping me out wif a schedule to keep myself studying and also help to plan my time.. Shit.. 19 yrs old stil nid pple to help me plan a timetable.. Hai.. shi bai..shi bai~
BUt i had alrdy promise tt i will work hard frm now on.. So yaa.. I will do my best and make sure i won let anyone down.. including myself..really can't afford to fail.. I know the consequences..
think my close frens know too.. Everyone have been encouraging.. I know i can't let myself and them dwn.. Ya.. Jiayou~ these goes out to everyone out there too.. jiayou..dn gif up in wadever u are doing.. =)