Wednesday, July 20, 2005
12:00 PM
I haf expected things like this to happen.. And i tot i was prepared and will not be affected by it..
Many things going thru my mind right now..
Is this wad am i really suppose to thru..?
Should be..maybe i deserved all these? Anyone nows how i feel? It's like
Standing alone in the darkness and no one's cuming for u..
Ya..people used to say i think alot.. and having lots of negative tots..
Oh..i am like so shitty right? Haha..But it's jus me..and i can't help it..
Understand..? there are things in life tt cannot be helped..
Maybe..jus maybe..
I haven see the real world.. tt's why i am having such thoughts..I'm not yet matured
N...Some people dun even know how i feel and went on ranting things abt wad
Happened.. why can't any one
Understand..?
I don wan this to happen too.. I've made empty promises..Ya.. But ain't I suppose to go for wad's
rite for myself? Shit me alright? Ya.. HAte me for all u wan.. I haf to make a decision.. I nid to follow my heart.. U all think tt i am unfeeling and don care wad's happening? I do alright?! All there motherfucking things happening all at the same time.. I jus dunno how to deal wif it!
I am not me in sch.. I am not me at home.. I dun even know the real me anymore.. I jus need u to understand tt.. there's no use going on wif things tt will eventually results in wadever things u can use "bad" to describe..
I dunno wad i am toking abt now.. cos i can't describe how i feel also.. So sorry pple..