Friday, July 29, 2005
11:53 AM
Woo! Yea..had fun today.. Cos today was the day i was born ..HAha..(is it a good thing?) Haha..
Stupid nas and JJ cracks jokes again.. Saying tt to day padang..esplanade..all got celebration.. Cos it's my birthday.. Stupid shitters! Haha..
Then thank you 04A3 people! Cos all of u sang i think a total of 5 bdae songs to me..Cool huh? Haha! thanks la.. Make fun of me.. but as long as u all happy.. i dn mind la! =)
!st present i got was kel..who pinched me at the nipple within one min i reached sch.. Up till now still pain..thanks ar BUD! haha! Thanks for the cake also.. HAha..
After tt..was the singing bythe class..Chelvie still encourage them to sing more!! Wad the hell! It's good tt teachers frm e other classes didn't complain.. cos they were singing quite loud la! Haha..
thanks C7 and lynn mei for the boxers u gave me! It's ...err.. priceless la! Haha..really damn nice! Love it alot la..
BUt can't wear right? Haha! So cool man! haha! Thanks for the ice kacang too!! Woohoo~ Frm collin! Haha.. dn meant to make u stay back la.. BUt later like so many gers and one guy.. I'll feel weird.. Ya loo
And lynn mei..we were really sry for wad happen.. really..we dn meant it la.. Ya.. Don angry le!
I had a memorable day today..thanks to all of them who made it memorable.. tHANKS!!!!
11:30 AM
Part 2
K said “Hey, although we have often talked online, I didnt feel that I needed to get your number or anything. I didn’t feel like talking to u in person, I myself don’t know why” something like that...T replied “ yes, because u are “dao”, always pretend that u never see me. I often wanted to say hi but u were always walking around in a hurry”
So K, at this point of time, know that he had not been “normal” to T. He realised that he was afraid of being normal to T. Why was that so? It is very simple. T bears an uncanny resemblance to K’s gf. Both were sweet petite girls. K was afraid of taking T as a substitute... (they were in the same school, but K’s gf at that time was in another Jc ). And so K asked himself, why are u acting so strangely towards T? he didn’t know.
But he said that golden line “do u want to meet me face to face? “ K couldnt believe that he typed that sentence. He keep telling himself.. If T rejects him this once, he would never think about asking her out again and leave things as they are. He really didn’t know what to do at that point of time. And T replied…..“ u Are always so dao towards me, are u sure u wanna meet me? I dont mind meeting u face to face..”
K replied “ no, I am not someone who is dao… Since u so onz, how about tomorrow? K was just banging on his chances. He was just asking for the sake of asking her, and by asking for tomorrow, K thought that she would have already made programmes…And so T replied “ tomorrow I would be having dance rehearsals….”And so K thought “ well, this is all fated, I would not ask her out anymore….”BUT … after saying that… T said… “I can meet u after that…”
T was a very protected girl. She can never go out after 8 pm. The latest that she can go is only during special occasions like prom night or chalets with teachers in it. So by asking K to go out after her rehearsals, it meant that T would have to meet K at around 8 pm. BTW T lives in the west, so she was making a move that might get herself into trouble. But when she asked K to meet her after her rehearsals, K didn’t think that T parents were so strict. K didn’t know that she had never gone out with guys till such a “late” time. ( the late time was actually very early, after 8 pm ) And so K replied…..“ can I have your number so that I can contact u to facilitate our meeting?”And T replied “ sure, can I have your number too?”
And that was how K and T exchanged numbers. For such a long time after knowing T, K has never asked for her number before, neither did T asked for K’s number. But that night, both of them exchanged their numbers after about five months. That changed everything forever.The next day came, and K was in a dilemna. He told himself, if T was ever going to be late, he would just leave, and leave her a voicemail that he was leaving. And so they fixed the meeting time at 7 pm in the evening. K knows that dance rehearsals usually end at around that time, and T would take sometime to meet him at a certain MRT Station control. So 7 pm came, and K’s heart raced faster. K keep telling himself to wait for T for only 15 mins. The moment K reached, he sent a page to T, telling her that he reached. Time was 7 pm exactly. At that time handphones were not common, only pagers. K hoped that T would be late and so that he wouldnt wait for her, as he feel very very uneasy to meet T, it was like meeting another variation of his gf. SO came 7.15, K msged T again to say that he was leaving, bye. Just like that… just as K was about to leave the mrt, he received a page that said please wait for me, I am coming now. So K was really in a dilemma. He didn’t know whether to wait or to leave. But to leave just like that was very very rude as T was already rushing to meet him. So finally he waited… as 7.20 approached, K thought of his gf, he thought that by meeting T, he was actually being a very unfaithful guy. And he picked himself up to leave. And so K left the mrt station, and walked towards the bus interchange.. when he reached the bus interchange, who else but Fate rounded them up again...
11:10 AM
This is a story I read at a forum.. Come in many parts..so I will update every now and then.. Enjoy!! ( Sorry for some strange wordings inside.. Dunno wad happen..but it is those word like "didn't" or "won't" then haf the strange wordings..)
Part 1
Long long ago, there was this girl who was in a jc in the east. She was a very charming girl, nice, sweet, pretty, and petite. She had beautiful eyes, and long flowing black hair. She had a very charming smile and a face which radiates youth. Although she is not a sexy girl, she has a sweet, innocent look. Then there was this guy, who was from another faculty. This guy had a small built, had boyish looks, and looked a little like an ah beng. This guy was in the same jc as this girl, and had a girlfriend in another jc, who was from his secondary school, but when he saw this girl, he was attracted to her. He was captivated by her, but he didn't do anything, as he knew he was attached. But there was something that was very weird, this girl resembles his current girlfriend a lot, and he cannot help it but steal glances at this girl whenever there is a chance to. Let this girl be T while the guy be K... and so a year passed, the guy, although he was attracted to the girl, didn’t try anything funny to know her or things like that. But as time passes, the relationship btw he and his current gf started to have problems. They were holding on together while many others have failed. K knew that it was not a good idea to break up with her as that was a crucial point of their lives, the A levels.. but it doesn’t mean that he has no more love for her, it was just that their relationship lacked spice and started to become routine. One fine day, K went out to celebrate his friend’s birthday and he saw T again at a food court. When he saw her, that funny sensation came back to him again. That weird feeling he had came back to him again. This time, he knows he cannot resist her anymore. But still he didn’t try to get to know her, he fought down that urge again. So after going home, K went online.This world has something called fate, and it happened btw K and T. T was online too that night. K doesn’t have a habit of talkin to strangers online, but that night, he just felt that he needed to talk to someone. So he went to an irc channel that was their school channel and waited. Fate gave them a chance, and made T come to irc. K had known the nick T used in irc, but didn’t try hard enough to talk to her, until that day, he just plucked up his courage to talk to her… So he double clicked on her nick, and started to say...“Hi, I saw you today at the food court “She replied “Oh were u the one who was wearing the purple shirt with the blue jeans?” K was amazed that she remembered him. So they chatted happily on irc. At this time in T’s head, she was actually attracted to K. She thinks that K was a very handsome guy. (From what she told K later on) So when she saw her that day, it left a very deep impression. And so they talked and talked, and K was happy yet guilty that he had talked to another girl. T knows that K had a gf, so she only chatted with K. So one day passed, and both of them felt happy to have met each other online.From that day onwards, K knew that he had not been a good guy, he was very sad that he had done something like that. Although when now he thinks back it was perfectly alright, in that period of time he feels that he is a flirt. So whenever he saw T in school, he didn’t say hi or anything. He just walked passed her many times without saying anything. Inside the head of T, she was thinking why K treated her that way. She thought that he was the guy who she had talked to in irc the other day. So she thought that she had talked to a wrong person, but in fact she didn’t. So she was very puzzled in her head, and needed to talk to K again...But T and K didn’t make an effort to wait for each other in irc as they had not fallen in love at that point of time... But once again, fate was in action. When K came online one day, T was online again. So K started to talk to T many times online…. Then one of the times when K was feeling down bcos of a quarrel with his gf, he begin to tell T everything… he began to tell her about the problems with his gf... How his gf neglected him bcos of studying... and many other things… but at this point of time... K didn’t feel that he had fallen in love with T. He knows he is attracted to T, but he won’t just give away his other relationship.T on the other hand, hasn’t like K as well, she just feels that he is a nice person. So when K tells her about his problems with his gf, T was very receptive. She gave him ideas, and offered some solutions. Never did she say things to worsen their relationship. So T and K became friends who only chatted on Irc. So it became like this, and a few months breezed by. The first time they chatted was during November 1999, and they talked many times till there was one fateful time during march 2000 when they chatted again..K began to chat with T online, as usual. I remember that it was a Tuesday, that fateful day. K and T chatted just normal talk, and there was an econs project coming along, which was due on Thursday. K and T begin to talk… and K said something that would change their lives forever…K said...
Thursday, July 28, 2005
8:21 PM
Part 2
K said “Hey, although we have often talked online, I didnt feel that I needed to get your number or anything. I didn’t feel like talking to u in person, I myself don’t know why” something like that...T replied “ yes, because u are “dao”, always pretend that u never see me. I often wanted to say hi but u were always walking around in a hurry”
So K, at this point of time, know that he had not been “normal” to T. He realised that he was afraid of being normal to T. Why was that so? It is very simple. T bears an uncanny resemblance to K’s gf. Both were sweet petite girls. K was afraid of taking T as a substitute... (they were in the same school, but K’s gf at that time was in another Jc ). And so K asked himself, why are u acting so strangely towards T? he didn’t know.
But he said that golden line “do u want to meet me face to face? “ K couldnt believe that he typed that sentence. He keep telling himself.. If T rejects him this once, he would never think about asking her out again and leave things as they are. He really didn’t know what to do at that point of time. And T replied…..“ u Are always so dao towards me, are u sure u wanna meet me? I dont mind meeting u face to face..”
K replied “ no, I am not someone who is dao… Since u so onz, how about tomorrow? K was just banging on his chances. He was just asking for the sake of asking her, and by asking for tomorrow, K thought that she would have already made programmes…And so T replied “ tomorrow I would be having dance rehearsals….”And so K thought “ well, this is all fated, I would not ask her out anymore….”BUT … after saying that… T said… “I can meet u after that…”
T was a very protected girl. She can never go out after 8 pm. The latest that she can go is only during special occasions like prom night or chalets with teachers in it. So by asking K to go out after her rehearsals, it meant that T would have to meet K at around 8 pm. BTW T lives in the west, so she was making a move that might get herself into trouble. But when she asked K to meet her after her rehearsals, K didn’t think that T parents were so strict. K didn’t know that she had never gone out with guys till such a “late” time. ( the late time was actually very early, after 8 pm ) And so K replied…..“ can I have your number so that I can contact u to facilitate our meeting?”And T replied “ sure, can I have your number too?”
And that was how K and T exchanged numbers. For such a long time after knowing T, K has never asked for her number before, neither did T asked for K’s number. But that night, both of them exchanged their numbers after about five months. That changed everything forever.The next day came, and K was in a dilemna. He told himself, if T was ever going to be late, he would just leave, and leave her a voicemail that he was leaving. And so they fixed the meeting time at 7 pm in the evening. K knows that dance rehearsals usually end at around that time, and T would take sometime to meet him at a certain MRT Station control. So 7 pm came, and K’s heart raced faster. K keep telling himself to wait for T for only 15 mins. The moment K reached, he sent a page to T, telling her that he reached. Time was 7 pm exactly. At that time handphones were not common, only pagers. K hoped that T would be late and so that he wouldnt wait for her, as he feel very very uneasy to meet T, it was like meeting another variation of his gf. SO came 7.15, K msged T again to say that he was leaving, bye. Just like that… just as K was about to leave the mrt, he received a page that said please wait for me, I am coming now. So K was really in a dilemma. He didn’t know whether to wait or to leave. But to leave just like that was very very rude as T was already rushing to meet him. So finally he waited… as 7.20 approached, K thought of his gf, he thought that by meeting T, he was actually being a very unfaithful guy. And he picked himself up to leave. And so K left the mrt station, and walked towards the bus interchange.. when he reached the bus interchange, who else but Fate rounded them up again...
12:37 AM
OK..had the 1st soccer training today...Bad thing is..i twisted my damn knee again.. think i really nid to go to the physio.. Otherwise..I won nid to go back for training anymore.. Now the thing is i can't straighten my leg or bend it.. Otherwise it hurts.. Damn.. feel so crippled now... How am i able to catch up wif the other soccer guys?! Tian ar
Other than tt..nth else happened much today.. Hmm..boring day huh? Yea yea~ I agree..Haa..
Oh yar..Parent's night nearing.. and nearing.. Be prepared pple..I mean..those who did not get good grades.. Haha..wish all u the best of luck.. Woo
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
12:35 PM
today's a weird day.. Everyone's feeling so weird..including me..
Yea.."great" day today... Cos i gt back my results.. triple F.. Wow..jacky.. wad am i doing.. Studying? I doubt so..mite as well go to hell right? Will work harder.. Thanks to those who encouraged me to work and study harder.. I promise i will try..
Anyway..early in da morning let me see sumthing which i dun wanna c.. Spoilt my mood for awhile.. But was thinking.. Who knows wad i am feeling anyway.. So.. ya..tried to cheer myself up by crackin lame jokes in class..It works! Bcos of syed and JJ la..as always..making fun of every word i say..and every action i make.. thanks huh 2 cuties?? Haha!
Actually wanted to stay for night study.. But eyes were becoming quite pain bcos of the contacts..so decided to go home.. Went to haf dinner wif kel b4 going home.. He told me some of the probs he had.. Relax la kel.. Everything will be fine! Jus be there for her..always.. everything will go smoothly i hope?
After tt..came home..and stuck to the comp till now.. But within this 1+ hrs in frt of the comp made know alot of things..which some.. i dn think is convenient to be stated here.. BUt jus hope everyone's alright? only then i can be alright? Cummon..people.. try to cheer up!! 28th cuming soon!! Wahaha!! Better rmb wad date is tt k? Woo!!
NIghtz pple! It's cold..cover urself wif blankets!
Monday, July 25, 2005
12:20 PM
Stayed at home the whole day today.. Was broke la..tt's why.. But didn't manage to do any homework although i had planned to do so.. Haha.. tt's me la.lazy!
Anyway..toking abt ytd..went for my audition at hougang kbox.. Was actually quite alright.. But i kind of forget the lyrics for the 2nd verse..cos i wasn't fully prepared for tt part..It's like i tot they will stop me once i finish the 1st verse.. but who knowS!!? They didn't stop me!! Argh! Shit! Dn think they will gif me a call..Nvm..chances will come..I hope so..
Thanks collin for accompanying me there too! Tried to ask him to take part too.. but he jus won't.. saying tt he is still not up to it yet.. Haiz..wasted! HIs vocals are great too..
After the aud..went to town to meet up wif ah min, pei and Zhuren (maid).. Haha! Went walking ard town.. Ok..think the highlight of the day was at far east long john..After buying my food.. i carried e tray to my seat la.. Then wanted to get to my chair..and pei's head was blockin.. So i lift up the tray in order not to hit a head.. Shit! The cup of coke slide now and dropped off the tray..and fell to e floor, making a big mess! Of course..the gers screamed and the whole long john went into silence..MAluation sets into me la! Shit..!! Hha.. My jeans were partially wet and all tt! Aiyo! So suay man..
After tt..went cini to play pool..met into eddy, agus and txk.. haha! Wad a coincidence..! Tt ah min..damn funny la..whenever she scored one.. Her face will haf some kind of "diao" look..like very hao lian huh? Smack her ar! Haha..then peiyi also..luffing loud as ever.. Grace dunno how to play..so ended up being like a referee liddat.. Haha!
Hmm..then went to meet up wif ah ling.. tania..collin and of course the lead of the day..Jo jo peng youu! Cos it was her birthday! Haha! Went to newton circus to eat! Kelvin..due to some probs wif his bro..can't join us.. Sad. Lynnest also.. Cannt join us..wasted!
Reached newton.. this funny yet friendly aunty help made space for the 8 of us.. She even helped us to keep the cake..where tania n ling bought frm swensen's! Woo..ice cream cake! Haha!
Ordered alot of food..they were quite nice! Haha..after the food came the cake! think we were attracting lots of attention cos we luffing and singing the bdae song very loudly! Haha.. then there's this lil' boy who came over and asked for some cake.. Cos we can't finish..we gave him 2 slices lor..one for him..another for his mum! Haha.. We're friendly aites? haha! We also gave some to the "julian" aunty and her worker.. haha! Peng youu was so shy la..when we sang the birthday song for her! Haha! kept teling us not to sing so loud..! Our voices ain't tt bad alrights? Haha..
Peng youu then went to meet her frens..tania went home.. and the rest of us went to town to slack for awhile..cos some of time said it was still early.. Haha!! Took alot of pics tt day la..all of us enjoyed ya.. But wad matter most is the birthday ger enjoyed! Woo!
Reached home ard 11+..tok on the phone for awhile..then off to slp i went.. ZZzzZz
Saturday, July 23, 2005
3:05 PM
Went kbox again today..can u believe it? haha! But it was fun la. 1st time so high! thanks to collin and sally! haha
tmls my audition for nus rhapsody.. dunno how will things turn out.. jus hope i can do my best..and lets see frm there lor.. Hope i won get too nervous.. haha..wish me luck! Woo~
Nth much to say for today le..
BUt wad happened today..was quite fun..and on the other hand..bcos of sumthings..i made me think to alot of things too.. I dunno.. hope things will turn out the better
Liyun! Don worry too much abt ur lost wallet le! Hope tt the person who picked up will sent ur stuffs back to u! don worry! Haha
Take care and gd nites pple!
Oh ya.. happy bdae to jo jo too!! Woo!
Friday, July 22, 2005
12:34 PM
Sumtimes..u will hope tt things will be better when sumone impt come along and tok to u when u are feeling real dwn..
Seriously..i haf nth close to the feelings tt i am feelin now..It's like as if i'm a criminal in a crime call love..And i haf commit a serious crime..
If u ask me to think how she feels..then who thinks abt how i feels..? NO one! FUCk! No onE!
The stares i am getting..everytime the walking past.. I can feel it.. i know i deserve it! HATE me k.. hate me.. I am shit la.. I know.. I don deserve anyone's love right now.. Wad can i do abt it..? go ard begging pple to let me off and ask them not to tok abt it anymore.. I can't! Cos i jus so freaking deserve it..NOw..i think no one trusts me anymore.. Not even..------
Wad can i do..? I finally knw wad i wan now..i seriously know.. but who will gif me a chance to prove it..?
I think it's time for me to step out of all these shit and seriously get on wif my damn life.. and think about wad's gd for me.. It's no fairytale life anymore.. Get real..jacky..get real~
Thursday, July 21, 2005
12:41 PM
Nothing much happened today.. Went for soccer meeting after sch.. Rozland is now the new coach..he has quite high standards for the team.. BUt it's good la.. Cos without him setting high standards for us.. our team's discipline also not tt gd..then we can't really achieve anything also..
Dunno why today temper abit bad ar.. Sorry rafi..almost fought wif u! Sorrry..! I abit off! Haha.. but lucky we made up! OK.. hurt my knee la..tt's why..u ar!
After tt..went to meet the crazy people..made me luff..not bad la huh? Haha..improve my mood a lil'
Aites..audition on this sat.. still can't really decide wad song to sing.. But hope everything will go well la..don wanna waste another chance.. Must choose the right song.. haha.. Wish me luck!
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
12:00 PM
I haf expected things like this to happen.. And i tot i was prepared and will not be affected by it..
Many things going thru my mind right now..
Is this wad am i really suppose to thru..?
Should be..maybe i deserved all these? Anyone nows how i feel? It's like
Standing alone in the darkness and no one's cuming for u..
Ya..people used to say i think alot.. and having lots of negative tots..
Oh..i am like so shitty right? Haha..But it's jus me..and i can't help it..
Understand..? there are things in life tt cannot be helped..
Maybe..jus maybe..
I haven see the real world.. tt's why i am having such thoughts..I'm not yet matured
N...Some people dun even know how i feel and went on ranting things abt wad
Happened.. why can't any one
Understand..?
I don wan this to happen too.. I've made empty promises..Ya.. But ain't I suppose to go for wad's
rite for myself? Shit me alright? Ya.. HAte me for all u wan.. I haf to make a decision.. I nid to follow my heart.. U all think tt i am unfeeling and don care wad's happening? I do alright?! All there motherfucking things happening all at the same time.. I jus dunno how to deal wif it!
I am not me in sch.. I am not me at home.. I dun even know the real me anymore.. I jus need u to understand tt.. there's no use going on wif things tt will eventually results in wadever things u can use "bad" to describe..
I dunno wad i am toking abt now.. cos i can't describe how i feel also.. So sorry pple..
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
12:47 AM
Exams are over..had listening compre today too.. Haha! Was so bored during the time when we waiting for listening tt i started playing maple wif JJ in the sch comp lab.. Imagine we had to wait frm 9.30 to 2.20?? haha..ya.. but was quite fun la.. Cos liyun playing also.. She like so dumb la! Everytime got beaten and stuffs.. Haha!
NOrmal lessons resume tml! Die la..still gt the stupid PW to worry abt.. Arghh.. So slpy today..cos slept quite late last night.. Going to slp soon..bye guys!
Sunday, July 17, 2005
1:28 PM
Went ktv for 2 consecutive day.. bth to clementi kbox.. HAha! My voice is almost gone.. But learnt some new songs like ying zi and huo guang.. all damn super nice.. Shit! Haa.. Arghh..monday still haf one stupid mgt paper.. after tt can relax abit le.. Haha..
Today was fun la.. All were quite high..but not as high as ytd..cos that "high" crazy korean ger..sally wasnt here today.. HAah! Damn funny la she.. Everyone was quite tired today.. HAha..rest more guys..! Hope u all enjoyed urself today!
Finally...sumthings are out and gone frm my mind.. I don wish to think abt anything more now..Jus let it go.. I am sry for wad i have done.. It's like..everything's not going very smoothly.. Why still go on..? It's not tt good for anyone..
I am look perfectly outside.. i may not show it on my face.. BUt..i can feel it all inside of me..
Sorry pple IF i had offended anyone wif my stupid black face lately..Iam sorry..
My mum's kind of strange this few days.. Can u pple imagine when she called u frm m'sia suddenly..and tell u tt she's going to die..? OMg~ I really dunno wad to say.. I jus asked her.. If she was alright.. She sounded weak..She jus told me not to spend too much money..and said she going to die soon.. I dunno if she was joking anot.. cos she say this all the time.. BUt it felt strange today.. I knew sumthing was wrong wif her health.. But she told me anything..and i dn dare to ask.. We are like tt..keeping everything to ourself.. It has been like this.. since she and dad left me in s'pore.. everytime we meet..we will quarrel at least once.. I haf been so unfilial..
When i heard abt how pple can joke wif their mums and stuffs.. i jus feel so sad.. Tt why our relationship can't be as gd as others.. I really hope tt nth will happen to her.. Otherwise.. there's no way i think i can survive on this earth.. anymore..
Friday, July 15, 2005
12:57 PM
Alright..2 more paper to go.. BUt i kind of know the results.. So..i am not too worry abt it.. Only swore to work extra for my nxt major exam..Ya..
After paper..which ended at 3 went to JP to meet lynnest they all.. Cos don wanna go home so early la.. So went to meet them.. HAha.. Stupid man.. Toked a lot of craps and stuffs.. Then lynn told us abt her family probs.. Which led me to thinking abt mine.. But.. no use thinking la.. I am wad i am and at where am i now.. So jus live my life.. Can't expect myself to keep on thinking of my family backgrd and brood over it.. At most.. Nxt time if i haf children.. I will give them wad i didn't recieve when i was young lor! HAha..provided got pple wanna get married wif me la! AHha! Sry la.. guys.. i too stress nowadays..tt's why keep on tokin craps..bear wif me for the moment.. i will get back to normal in no time..wahha!
3:13 AM
Wah piang..jus had my econs mcq and drq.. FAilin again.. HAha..now at sch's comp lab.. Waiting for collin to end sch..then go K together.. Cos the person frm rhapsody called me the other day..ask me to go for their audition.. Previous auditions weren't tt successful.. So hope to make it up by going thru this one.. But songs selection is a major problem.. So.. ya.. NId to ask collin and some of them for opinions.. Hope collin will join wif me too..! HAha..
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
1:00 PM
Wad will u guys do if u haf to make a choice tt will affect u and at the same time hurt 2 pple..?
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
12:31 PM
K..today's 1st day of mid yr exams.. Think will not fail too badly for mgt paper.. BUt tml is guess wad.. phy geog and econs essay.. two of the stupidest papers in the world out together will only bring the hell out of me.. Freak.. I am taking a break now.. Not tt i am lazy or i don wanna study.. But..no matter how hard i try to concentrate.. I can't get all the stuffs inside! I understand most of wad the notes are saying.. BUt everytime during the paper itself.. all gone! Like today's mgt paper.. The simplest thing i also can forget.. Is it tt i didn't study enuff? I think so.. Damn.. I can't afford to fail man.. But ytd i was so afraid abt my studies for the 1st time in my life.. I can feel the stress for the 1st time.. tt if i screw all these shit up.. I am going to face trouble..and lots of them.. Although my aunt..my mum will be kind of happy and relieve tt i will go to the army..But i don! I really wanna get a A lvl cert and go to the U.. Wad can one do w/o a cert in s'pore nowadays..? Practically nth.. Really...I don wanna get stuck in the army for life.. Wad more can i do? Sing? Ah la..forget it.. I am not professionally trained or haf the looks.. so i can forget abt it too..Wad can i do now..except to mug and mug like nobody's biz? So many things running thru my mind now also.. No wonder cannot concentrate also.. Haiz..close frens..U might know wad am i toking abt..bye pple..going back to fight the books.. =(
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
12:37 AM
Went to watch War of the Worlds today.. Hmm..not a bad movie.. But the ending was pretty sucky la.. Like no ending like tt.. Arr.. Haha.. but watch wif the crazy pple also quite fun..
These few days didn't really got dwn to study..everytime study halfway..then stop.. Die die die~
Like ytd.. Study halfway..then go clementi kbox.. all because i cannot fight my temptation! Haha.. But long time neva sing.. Singing suck big time.. Whaha..
Like feel so tired nowdays..whenever i go to sch.. dunno why..It's not as if i don haf enuff slp.. Haha.. Aiyar.. Hope those stupid aliens out there really come and destroy Earth.. And all those pathetic things tt are happening ard me will end.. for good..
Friday, July 01, 2005
12:46 PM
Wahaha.. ok..Met my mum for dinner jus now.. She came back frm M'sia..Have been a mth since i saw her.. Haha.. neva quarrel today..seems like a gd thing huh? Haha.. Went to this restaurant at shenton way area..and yes!! It was jus beside M hotel!! Haha.. Ok..only kel and I know this joke..sry! The food was nice.. famous for it's chicken i think..but abit ex la.. 2 person 30 sumthing..we eat their food..they eat our money...damn..Reach home ard nine plus.. I was a hero jus now! Haha..ok..it goes like this.. I went upstairs to look for erjie..wanted to pass her the money for my hp bill.. But who knows..she was aslp alrdy.. So i went dwn again.. On my way walking dwn the stairs.. I saw this boy..in sec sch unifor..carrying a large amt of clothings in his hand.. N when he saw me..he was shocked la.. His face very strange also..So i tot sumthing mus be wrong.. After he walked past me.. he like start to walk very fast.. then this indian woman..who happens to be my neighbour..ask me whether a boy carryin alot of clothes walked past.. I said ya.. And she said the boy have stolen their clothes.. so i jus ran after him la.. Who knows..he started running also.. He stayed at the 11th floor.. the stupid guy..got lift don wanna take..go run up the stairs..and i caught his bag..and ask him to stop.. the indian woman was behind me..then keep on shouting..scolding the boy..then the boy threw the clothes on the floor and ran up..the woman said nvm la..dun nid chase..it's not the 1st time..cos the boy i think got mental probs..everytime take their clothings..after tt..they will find their clothing all over the block.. Wah piang..i live at the block for so long also dunno gt this type of people eh.. Haha.. Scary.. maddy..Ok..haf to wake up early tml..cos meeting someone.. woo! Kk.. gd night..
